What the 2020?!

I don’t need to emphasize on the disaster that is 2020 but here we are and America is bursting at the seams while continuing to choke on the very things we need to live — it’s own spiraling ruins.

I will say this, I am grateful to still have a job, to still be working during a global pandemic but it’s worrisome because of the uncertainty. The uncertainty of what and where the company is heading and there’s two sides to this: my intuition + observation (which is usually right) and the reality. Yes, I have a job right now. Yes, I have been working while so many have lost their jobs. I feel for them, but for me, could this all come to an end? Yes it could. I kind of expect it to happen by no fault of my own over time. The real question is will I bounce back from the impact? I say yes because that’s what we all typically do if we find ourselves, or more like believe that we’ve hit a metaphorical rock bottom. We pick ourselves back up and keep going regardless.

This virus which I believe is real, yet has been over-exaggerated to cause fear has put the world on pause, but there are some small elements of good in between the disruption, so maybe there is hope? Let’s all hope so. This year has really knocked us all down, forced us to stop, to think, to learn how to be our own company, how to communicate with ourselves and others — six feet apart and further. Yet, somehow it still feels like it’s buried us into a deep hole that will not allow us to get out no matter how many time we try to climb out of it.

I’m not going to lie, it’s been very trying, very frustrating, and a very confusing year to say the least, but we have to continue living in the midst of chaos.